The roller coaster of emotions that I experience on a daily basis, is sometimes so overwhelming, that I often wonder if the consistency (in emotion) that I thought I had pre-mama, was even a thing.
So, why roller coasters?
They are inconsistent, risky, short-lived, adrenaline-provoking, and ultimately, thrilling. See what I did there?
Why then, in a world fueled by thrill-seeking, risk, and inconsistency, are we so concerned with keeping our emotions|thoughts so streamline and consistent?
Is it because the inconsistency of our emotions brings about an undesirable feeling, or is it because we believe that the emotional “norm” is streamline and consistent?
I have thought this thought too many times y’all.
One minute I feel on top of the world, as I dive into the hours and hours of work that I try to cram into a two hour nap time. Though, when my daughter wakes and #momlife ramps up again, I feel a sense of distress as the weight of untouched work begins to weigh me down. Yet, at the same time, I am so stinkin’ excited to go into my daughter’s room and see her shining smile as she does her happy dance after waking from her mid-afternoon nap.
My reason in writing this y’all, was not to diagnose my|your emotions. Or, really even talk about emotions for that matter. I guess you can say, that I am full of surprises. Rather, in a round about way, I wanted to tell y’all to:
worrying | over analyzing | being so dang hard on yourself | looking into everything
Annnnnnnnnnnd just unapologetically live your life like the badass, perfectly imperfect mama you are. . .
We got this mamas –
Much love from Oklahoma mamas,